#ItsLive ~~ Forbidden Bastard by Felicia Lynn
I fight an internal war daily as my desire for her spreads like a wildfire through me -my cravings to protect her just as powerful as my need to taste her, touch her. Never has anyone held this kind of power over my need to rule, but I would risk my power in a heartbeat to have her.Regardless of the cost, I will have her. I’ll sacrifice everything to ensure it.
And, I’ll destroy anyone who stands in my way.
Matteo was my best friend— my person. He’d been my armor since we were seven years old. Although many in the family speculated our relationship was more than a genuine friendship, as our bond grew tighter throughout the years. Without question, no one was more valuable to me than he was, but it wasn’t what they thought. Thick as thieves, they’d joke. On that part, they were never wrong.
We were personality opposites in every single way, but I loved him deeply as one would cherish a pain in the ass sibling they adored, I’d guess. As an only child, I wouldn’t personally know, but Matteo would’ve, and I’d bet everything I have that given the choice of his brother or me, Matteo and I would’ve stuck together. It’s been us against the world from the start. I was the yin to his yang.
In my vulnerable years, when so many people vowed to be there for me, Matteo was the only one who proved it. Trust— unquestionable. Loyalty— incontestable. He never gave me a reason to second-guess any of his motives or instructions, and when I’d balk at his protective bossiness, he didn’t give up. He wanted what was best for me, and as hard as it is to admit, being a guy in the family gave him the upper hand. He knew, heard, and saw more just because he was born with a penis, and as a girl, I was expected to be oblivious to the world around us. I’m sure they believe that’s the case, but they’re wrong. Matteo told me everything. Secrets were our hard limit.
Matteo has never let me down on any of his promises. That’s why I refuse to believe he willingly broke the most important rule of all. He couldn’t, and he wouldn’t. It was the foundation of who we were. I don’t have a clue where to begin to move on in a life without him. He promised to always be here for me. He wouldn’t turn his back on that.
Biting hard on my lip, I attempt to swallow back the sounds of my heartbreak until my lip forms a pulse from the assault of my teeth. The tears slowly trailing down my cheeks do so little to cloud the view of reality in front of me. I’m smothering in this agony I can’t emotionally fathom as real, and even though I know the result can’t be disputed, someone is hiding the real story in the tunnel of dark secrets. Matteo isn’t here to shield me from this, and regardless of how many calming breaths I take, nothing can change the torment of his absence. The life I’d imagined had so much more promise, but false hope is a bitch. I don’t understand, but at the same time, deep down I know the truth. Not everything is as it seems.
Felicia Lynn, author of The Learning Curve series and Heartstrings series, is a transplanted Florida girl, born and raised, who lives just north of Atlanta, GA. She spends most of her days holed up in a cozy chair with her laptop, writing about the characters that live in her head. When she’s not writing, you’ll find her hanging out with her family and friends or interacting with her readers and fellow book lovers on social media! She loves traveling, reading, live music, baseball, good food and great company.
Felicia writes contemporary romance and co-wrote The List, a mystery/suspense book she collaborated on with professional poker player, Chris Bell.